“Vulnerability is the only bridge to build connection.”

That’s not the beginning of the end
That’s the return to yourself
The return to innocence
Love – Devotion
Feeling – Emotion
Love – Devotion
Feeling – Emotion
Don’t be afraid to be weak
Don’t be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart my friend
That will be the return to yourself
The return to innocence
If you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself don’t hide
Just believe in destiny
Don’t care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don’t give up and use the chance
To return to innocence
That’s not the beginning of the end
That’s the return to yourself
The return to innocence
Don’t care what people say
Follow just your own way
Don’t give up, don’t give up
To return, to return to innocence.
If you want then laugh
If you must then cry
Be yourself don’t hide
Just believe in destiny.

I encourage us all to embrace our vulnerability. Return to yourself, look into your heart. What do you fear? Why are you sad? What is your weakness? Don’t be afraid to show it. My vulnerability is my sensitivity, feeling everything so deeply, need to share my feelings and thoughts openly to anyone who will listen, doing things my way. These are also my strengths. Vulnerability is the bridge to human connection, we are all vulnerable. The ones with courage aren’t afraid to show their vulnerability to others, and that is a gateway to deep human connection. This is what we all ultimately crave, isn’t it?

“When you show up authentic, you create space for others to do the same. Walk in your truth.”

“There are far better things ahead than any we leave behind.”

Did you make New Year’s resolutions? I did, and will continue doing. I love to set goals and write down dreams… That way they start to concretise in your mind and you make gradual, conscious or unconscious steps towards realising these visions. My resolutions consists of abstract things as well as concrete goals. Some of them are too personal to share, some not ūüėČ

 

I want to keep growing as a person. Get to know myself better, and understand my closed ones better. Be happy and only let people leave from my company more inspired than they were. I want to be more present in the moment. I will cut time spent on my phone. I’m not afraid to go to flight mode. I don’t need to be available virtually all the time, instead I want to be available to people I’m surrounded by. Showing respect by listening is so important. I want to learn to recognise, accept, respect and embrace personality differences. We are all built differentially, communication is the key. I realise that I can learn something from every single person. It doesn’t mean you need to keep spending time with people that don’t energise you.¬†Also realising when its time to let go and say no is respect towards oneself. I love the quote “You’d love everyone if you knew their story”. Let’s show compassion to everyone around us.

 

 

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My more concrete resolutions have to do with doing more what I love such as surfing and yoga, getting better at them, deepening my relationships,  exploring my current home city more thoroughly, travel to new as well as already been places, and start new work related projects. I want to take meditation to my days again, get more often to a creative mode, encourage others to pursue their dreams and do the same myself. In fact there is really no real line between concrete and abstract. Abstract becomes reality when you believe in it and build it gradually through small actions.

365 days. Let’s decide that this year will be the best one so far.

 

 

“When you come to the point where you have no need to impress anyone, your freedom will begin”

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My 2016 started with a yoga class. I’ve gone every day since. I am hooked by the feeling that the combination of being mindful about your body & mind, flowing asanas, powerful energy of the people around you, inspiring teachers, endless sweating, and just the right¬†music gives to you. An hour of yoga makes me feel so alive, powerful, inspired, somehow unstoppable. I get my best ideas there and I often wish I had pen and paper with me.¬†My new years resolution is to continue practising often.

I like the quote of the title and I feel like I’m on a good path. Spending New Years alone is only one example, I love the fact that I no longer feel a need to explain myself regarding how to spend my time. 90% of my time I love to live healthily, wake up early, exercise and eat fresh. But it doesn’t mean I won’t have a night out every now and then and enjoy a huge steak even more often. Balance is the key. Finding the balance is what I will continue to work on this year in all life areas.

Valma (and my wetsuit) landed safely on New Years Day. Arne with new visitors returned from their New Years celebrations as well, and turned out that the guys are super funny. The highlight of our day was meeting Maija & Luka for drinks. Maija also lives in London so was really good catching up. She is a girl with always a huge smile on her face, best people reading skills and a huge heart. With her I can talk hours about life, relationships, future and personalities. Love it.

Valma’s last supper was enjoyed at¬†Charcoal on New Church Street. I was a bit nervous to take 4 of our visitors to a place I had not tested before but it turned out to be a needless worry, we all loved Charcoal. Romatic and minimalistic setting, delicious and beautiful dishes.¬†The night continued to Village Idiot. Though I mostly stay out of night life here, I’m always keen for this place. Good music, cozy venue, great crowd. I even got to tick dancing at the table off my bucket list.

The day after brekkie took place at Truth, before it was time to head to the airport. My favourite avo toast still resides here… She is now safely back at London, the host is is happy and in need for some more me time ūüėČ I can’t wait to get projects started for the new year and plan how I will make the most out of my (too short) remaining time in this amazing city.

 

 

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“Be fearless when it comes to life, and careless when it comes to what people may think or say about you.”

 

 

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ENFPs are passion-driven ‚Äėideas‚Äô people. They gain energy from interacting with the world around them, and become quickly excited over new possibilities. Though ENFPs loves being around people, they crave alone time much more than the average extrovert. ENFPs search for a deeper meaning in just about everything, and use their much-coveted alone time to decide how their experiences fit in with their system of core values. To be frank, it‚Äôs an exhausting personality to have.

 

Right now – the year changing in few hours, I’m home alone, using my “much-coveted alone time deciding how my experiences fit into my value system.” ūüėĬ†Though I get most of my energy of human connection and drain quickly when I’m alone for too long, I have a huge introvert in me as well. This part of me¬†has been tested all December, hosting my dear friends, moving in with someone and suddenly sharing the everyday life, and all the social events that have come along. And I’ve enjoyed every day of it, in fact, the past month has been a period of my life that I’ll surely never forget.¬†However,¬†I’ve always needed a huge amount of time alone, time when no one knows where I am, what I’m doing. To recharge, reflect, create. ¬†Lack of this kind of¬†time escalated today and I felt like I needed a break.

We spent the past few days with Valma in Hermanus, with her friends from London. Stories of the past days will never make it to instagram or the blog but let’s just say we experienced another kind of lifestyle. I’m so grateful for Sarah & Gideon, our lovely hosts and all others who made us feel welcome to each event we got to attend. The reason why I drove back home ¬†without Valma was that we had the option of flying back to Cape Town. As I had my car there I had to turn down helicopter ride, but I wanted her to have the experience. Though I’m by no doubt jealous, I’m so happy one of us gets to do this. So, after few nights of dinner parties and new people, I decided to skip the New Years party and head home today, to avoid the traffic and get some much needed alone time.

 

Instead of feeling lonely, I only find it funny and typical for me that the night I decided it was time for alone time happened to be New Years Eve. I guess this is what happens when I drain myself socially – end up spending new years home alone and loving it ūüėȬ†I had the option of meeting Maija & Luka for drinks but I simply couldn’t – I guess it also the result of weeks of sleep deprivation. I’ve been too high on life lately to sleep. ūüėČ Hope they can share a breakfast with me tomorrow.

 

Waking up fresh and alone to 2016 doesn’t sound to bad as I know I’ll be surrounded by my close people by the time of afternoon.¬†If this was Christmas, I’d be shedding tears of sadness, but now I can’t help by smile to myself.¬† Embrace your weirdness, that’s what I keep saying and living accordingly.¬†I hope everyone else is having a night surrounded with the people they want to. ‚̧ As ironic as it sounds, I am as well.

 

P.S. At times like these, I love to go back to my favourite¬†articles,¬†¬†finding it amusing how someone can drill¬†into my mind so accurately. I can identify¬†with every single one¬†but I picked the ones relevant past days ūüėČ

 

1. Getting your energy from social interaction, but disliking superficial conversations. Yes, I want to go to a party tonight. But a party full of contemplative people who want to alternate between taking shots and discussing the meaning of life.

2. Being very socially conscience but also fiercely individualistic. This means always wanting to fit in with a group, but never wanting to compromise your personality to do so.

3.¬†The constant tug-of-war between ‚ÄėYES, I WANT TO GO EXPRIENCE EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW‚Äô and ‚ÄėWow, I need a lot of time to process these experiences, can I take a breather?‚Äô

7. Constantly contradicting yourself because you genuinely see multiple sides to most situations.

8. Everyone thinking you’re flirting with them, all of the time.

10. Getting bored 500 times faster than the average human being.

12. Stressing out friends and acquaintances who don’t like straying from the original plan.

13.¬†Working towards a constantly altering notion of your ‚Äúideal self.‚ÄĚ

My extrovert loves her different roles in life…. My introvert loves to learn new skills and create, be it any new project.

17. Needing significantly more alone time than other extraverts.

I have a fear of missing out for both time with others and lack of spending time with myself. My extrovert loves engaging conversations, meeting new people and hearing stories, my introvert loves to process these encounters and talks into writing, or new dreams and goals.

18. Others being surprised that you hold such strong opinions and beliefs, despite your easy-going nature.

22. Wanting to be alone… but like, with other people nearby.

23. Appearing shallow because of your tendency to flit from topic to topic in conversation, with lightening speed.

24. Having a fiercely independent streak… but getting bored without company.

 

25. Being a walking contradiction in almost every way, but knowing that you wouldn’t change a thing, even if you could.

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